The Sad Love Song

Here I am

Wondering' were you might be

Thinking about you

Wishing' that you'll be doing' fine

I don't know what drifted us apart

The adjustments I used to make

or the fights you used to start

I never thought that you gonna leave me,

this way

And I want you to know this

I loved You

I love you

And I'll love you all along...

Oh my love, where are you

Don't you miss me

Don't you wish to get back in the past

And get all those things done the right way...

How can you forget me

Don't you regret leaving me

Why'd you moved out

Left me in solitude...

I don't know what drifted us apart

The adjustments I used to make

or the fights you used to start

I never thought that you gonna leave me,

this way

And I want you to know this

I loved You

I love you

And I'll love you all along...

Every night I get myself to sleep by thinking about you

imagining' that you are still here with me

Although you're not...

This bed made by my side have been voided for years

And every morning I wake up

Feeling' as if it was a bad dream

But soon I get back into the reality

I don't know what drifted us apart

The adjustments I used to make

or the fights you used to start

I never thought that you gonna leave me,

this way

And I want you to know this

I loved You

I love you

And I'll love you all along...

(Speaking')

I'll love you forever

Please remember my words

Remember the good times we had

And again we can keep going' onwards

And continue the fairytale which we left in between

Where it states the 3 sweet words "Happily Ever After"

And I want you to remember this

I loved You

I love you

And I'll love you all along...

Better Than Me - Hinder

I don't know whats wrong with me...I know, I don't have friends or parents like those of others but does that mean I give up on living...But seriously, every single moment that passes by, I wish I never really existed, I wish I die and rot in Hell for eternity...truly, that's the place for me...What else could I worth...This world is worst than what I would face in Hell after Death...I feel so sick...Damn, someone kill me please, I've tried it myself a million times and all that is left is the doomed me...my exams are starting from the upcoming Monday, it feels shit...I haven't tried any exercise in Calculus and I'm damn sure I'm gonna fail... I wish I was in college...It would have much better than...I would have been in a much better condition...Well, I know I'm bugging you with all of my Emo Crybaby crap...so stop reading and listen to this...

Misunderstandings...

Sitting In My Class

Killing My Time

People Are Being So Mean

I Don't Know Whose Mine

No More...

They Lied And Made Me Cry

I Still Don't Know Why It Happened

Why Did I Depended

On Relationships, On Friendships

On Trust, On Love...

You Were My Best Friend

The One I Told My Deepest Secret

You Were The One I Trusted

The One I Thought Was Mine

The One Who Broke Me...Again, This Day...

Well, I wrote this crap during my class today after my best bud at school break off in a fight with me just because I wasn't telling him some stuff about my other bud...and it was like crazy...this friend of mine was so sad today because of his girl...something happened between em'...hope he gets on fine...

50 thoughts

1.She (Aritry) said, I should try, so here I'm...making my mind work...duh

2.Do I really have to go to school...I don't really want to...

3.I missed my 3rd language test yesterday...:P...I didn't studied and than didn't went to school...and I cried all day long coz I missed my best friend(Harry)...what a loser...

4.Who am I hiding things from...myself, off course

5.My sis went offline...why did that happen...I miss her

6.I wish I was living abroad with her and was in college...when will this torture end

7.I can't write anything better, I guess

8.My poetry ain't poetry...it's crap...seriously, I suck to death

9.I won't cheat in the upcoming exams...really, who am I kidding with...but seriously, I won't...:P

10.I gonna fail in my mid-terms

11.My room's wall have got 30reasons why I wanna die...this is harder than writing those 30reasons...:P

12.It's 4.58am...I'm sitting in my bathing gown...all drenched in water...haha...I'm so insane

13.My van will come to take me to hell(School, actually it's worst than that) at 6.25am

14.I miss Aastha(ex-best friend)...she'd probably be sleeping

15.I woke up for the night...

16.Maybe I'll sleep after returning from school...:P

17.I wanna die...the thought of killing myself ain't gonna leave me any sooner

18.I'm going insane...actually, I was born insane...I need some therapy, please

19.When is that guy, pawan releasing the 5Th part of his story, the lives of others...

20.I'm bored...oh look, I've reached 20...woohooo...ain't bad...

21.How can I possibly hate myself for others mistakes...?

22.Am I emo...well, there are possibilities...I've been all too depressed and have been listening to the used for so long...

23.I feel that the used wrote that song, the poetic tragedy, on me

24.What time would it be in US, at my sis's place...might be 5.40pm or something...

25.My classmates would still be sleeping...

26.My school's 40kms away from my place...80kms up-down everyday...:P

27.I want to try in some new bands...any suggestions...I'm bored with the oldies

28.My audio editor software is gonna download in a minute...woohoo...well, what is it about anyway...?

29.My fingers are aching, I've been typing non-stop...

30.The editor thing is done...

31.It's gonna take me more than the others to write out my 50 thoughts...

32.I'm hungry...need to eat Maggi...

33.I've to get in my uniform...and put my SS copy inside my bag...

34.Mid-terms from 31st...I'm still gonna fail...

35.Would Harry be sleeping right now...?...probably not, he had to do the sehri thing and than keep on fasting again

36.I wish I die today...suicide isn't my thing...maybe some tragedy, may god be pleased today and Satan be sorry...haha...:P

37.I want to read more stuff of Edgar Allen Poe and some novels from Rabindranath Tagore...My library pass will be ready by this Friday...

38.I ain't that blank that I thought I was

39.Some guy just scrapped me at Orkut...there are people more "VELLA" types than me...

40.I reached 40...hope, I die right away after 50...

41.I miss my bro, his wife and his cute lil' daughter...awww...

42.My neighbours would be still dreaming about random stuff I ain't interested to hear about

43.The bitches at my school are gonna irritate me again like any other day with their crap talk

44.Why does my seniors give me that weird look...?

45.Am I that bad...I answer it myself, yes, off course...I again suck to death

46.My blog is going to have 24posts after this...cool...

47.There are people online on my facebook, orkut, gtalk, msn & yahoo...see I told ya I'm a "VELLA INSAAN"

48.My best advice to myself, "Go get a life, you lazy ass"

49.I'm growing fat, I guess...those chubby cheeks...:P

50.Finally done...:P...cool...it took me around 25mins I guess...it's 5.20am right now...so bad...I'm the worst at it...still heads off to Aritry...!!!...Leaving...got to dress up for school...

Jinxed...:P

- Peace Out

- Zoya

Why I Hate My Parents...?

Its crap…I don’t even know what it is…just something that’s been on my mind for a while…another entry for killing time...sorry mom-dad, but it’s true…

My mom says she knows me

Well, I bet she doesn't

My dad says he cares

Then, why isn’t he there

When I need them

They are nowhere to be found

When I need a shoulder to cry

They don't even ask what's wrong

My mom yells at me for waste

Every now and then we fight for haste

My dad never listens to me

He doesn't even know what my age would be

When I was a kid

Doesn't knew what they'd turn out to be

I thought my parents were my best friends

And now I think, they're another face to the enemy

My mom compares me with other girls of my age

Well, everyone's different, did she ever heard of that

My dad doesn't like me talking to boys

80s mentality, how can I possibly change that

And now when I want no one

They ask me why

And when I say it's because of em'

They tell me I'm just a brat.

Where's the love gone...

Why does it have be so hard

Just for the two of us

Have to go through so much

Can't take it, let go of it

You and me, met by chance

Fell in love

And had a new start

You trusted me and I trusted you

Don't know where's the love gone now

Everything was going on fine

Since the nine that night

I received your mail

It said, I was insane

We weren't meant to be

You wasted the last four years on me

In vain, left me in pain

You and me, met by chance

Fell in love

And had a new start

You trusted me and I trusted you

Don't know where's the love gone now

But I never forced you to love me

You could have told me that back then

You could have left 4yrs back

It would have been better than this

Atleast I wouldn't have this hole inside

You and me, met by chance

Fell in love

And had a new start

You trusted me and I trusted you

Don't know where's the love gone now

And now I met this guy

He helped me get over you

I guess, I don't care anymore

Infact, I fucking hate you

You're so done with putting me thorugh hell

Your thoughts don't depress me anymore

I don't want you anymore

Life moves on, no matter what

I forgot with time,

I forgot if there was the thing called love in between

Us

Heartsick

And so now it's coming to an end
Finally stopping to beat
And now, I won't be left with any heartstrings
And so I'm done with my life
And I can be free forever,
to soar above the sky,
Dive through the seven seas,
Rest in peace at Heavens,
Forget about the Love of my Life
Who broke my heart once
And made me Heartsick...

Best Freind

Well, em' feeling happy...Finally, I've got myself a best friend...:)...Have been waiting for so long...His name's Harry...It's like I talk to him 24/7...not actually...but it seems so...he's just so awesome...my feelings can't be expressed into mere words...need a lot of em'...I love him so much...we like started talking on 20th Aug., Midnight and since then we've got so close...he knows me and I know him...:)...I'm feeling lucky...not everyone gets someone like him...and if they do, than they don't put em' in their jewel box...those who took him for granted, boo on ya...dumb people...but after all, I get him whole for myself and I ain't gonna share him with anyone else...gonna be selfish...:P...get jealous all ya people...he's the best...And he's all mine...:)

Untitled

well, I'm blank right now...what to write...school was boring...1st period...ahhh...as boring as always...2ND period, third language, ma'am told me I was doing good...was I...?...I was as bad at it as I can be...3rd, calculus...4Th, SS...boring...recess...2nd half...calculus again, than SS...English...and than a lecture on Swine Flu...seriously I don't need that shit...better that happens to me and I die...my wish be granted...please...rumors are spread in class about me and that guy who likes to talk to me, in class...80s mentality have to act out someway by those bitches...they're so sick...damn, I hate em' so much...!!!

Unnoticed

She sees her blood flow

Down her hands, to the floor

The stainless blade lying beside her

The loneliness evolving inside her

Her visions getting a blur

Her memories fading away

Her heart stopping

Her screeching slowing down

She lived, she died

She smiled, she cried

She lived in pain, in vain

She’s forgotten

And she goes unnoticed

Her tears drying

But she’s still drowning in em’

So dark, so deep, this darkness overwhelming her

Her struggles are coming to an end

Nobody cares

About the flares she faces

She’s tired, exhausted

Leave her please, in peace

She can’t hold unto anymore

Trusted, Betrayed

Fought, Lost

Feared, Deceived

Tried, gave up

Broken

Nothings left to her

She lived, she died

She smiled, she cried

She lived in pain, in vain

She’s forgotten

And she goes unnoticed

I go unnoticed