Friday, May 21, 2010

Sometimes questions are more important than answers..


Haven't you ever felt , alone ?
Haven't you ever felt , betrayed ?
Haven't you ever been a teen ?
Didn't you ever looked for an escape ?
Didn't you made mistakes ? ( Oh , I know I was a mistake )
Escape , from this desolated world ,
And from the atrocities which live here
Those who don't give here , nothing but hate ,
Took as much as they can , from me , you see
And they left this hollow hole in my heart and it bleeds
I buried the scars deep , underneath my full sweat
And I bet you couldn't see me crying as I hide under this virtual lair
And I fake a smile so perfect , you'd barely notice the sorrow
Cause outside these four walls , I don't know what I'm , nothing but some trash
A child unwanted , an obnoxious student , a fucked up so-called friend ,
and a lover undone , so dramatic or a sissy baby sister , as she called me
And 'cause you couldn't see whats lying beneath this corpse , indeed
A soul untouched , I'm hungry for love
You hurt me so bad , and I can see it doesn't even matter
nothing's gonna change , you'll be staying the same
Saying sorry wouldn't make a difference
You can't go back around in the past and erase the scars , the bruises , they live
And anyway who am I fooling around with ? What would you be sorry for ?
For telling me that you hate me or for me not being an "extraordinary child"
Don't feel sorry for me , you know that I'm a fucked up case
Desolated I stay and I know you're not the one to be blamed
Its all me , always been , all covered up in these revolutionary philosophies
Would it make a difference if I just quit ?
Quit from this job of being your perfect kid
'cause you don't treat me like a kiddo anymore
As if I'm some matured shit And if you can't bear to see me like this
So I guess , you shall just kick , kick me out of "your" place
I wouldn't mind being a stray 'cause you see I've gone too far astray
And feeding me with those lies , doesn't help at all
'cause in reality , you're just the same as I'm
Except you get to make your own choices and you have me as a slave
And I'm sorry to be naive , but it'd be hard to bury myself with all these words
They crush my insides to pieces and I've got to let them out , so now I shut
I've always been a victim , noticed the glass half empty
And I slit , so what ? Self abuse ain't a big thing
Anyway , its so tempting , redeeming myself from these sins
And not to tell you , people call it child abuse
What you do to me , as you shut me , sweet .
And with this I end here , another poetical tragedy
In the end of these absurd lines , I do the crime of killing me.

P.S. That was me trying to write some rap. LoL . : D .

Saturday, May 1, 2010

My favorite mistake , But I moved on.


Its not something I write , the heartbreak songs for the diseased , but I just wanted to see if I could..And so here it is . *feels weird* . |~_~| .

I hate you
For the way you make me feel
Wish I could detach you
But you've become a part of me
An important part , I must say

You're my weakness
And you know it
You take me in
And you throw me
Down I fall and you just watch

Pain's my own personal drug
Lovestruck I'll burst
Open for you to kill
Stab my heart out
And you won't mind
No you won't mind, this time

Had enough of you
Still I can't leave you
You used, abused
And now you leave me for waste

Did I say
You're my favorite mistake , I made
And I can't get over it
I love you with all my heart
But you're just giving it away
You gave it away

And here I stay
Heartbroken again
Not anymore , not anymore
I moved on
I'd take the fall , reach out for more
I'm done with your faking around
You were my favorite mistake
But I moved on .