Is This Life...?

Walking past the lonely lanes

I see no living soul around

Just the remembrance left with me

I'm sure there once lived some...

Thinking about all of those times

The laughs I shared with others

They, who made this,

A walk to remember...

Wandering aimlessly here

Where's my destination

What's the reason to all of this

Why am I giving resignation to life...?

Worshipping every morning

Is there any life in this statue

I keep on talking with the one it holds

Or maybe it's nothing but My loneliness,

I talk to...

People in sorrow

Living in pain

Asking themselves why live this life in vain

There's nothing left of them...

Living like the dead

Seems to be the end of the World

No moment of happiness

No time for fun

Just living

Living without emotions...

Twilight Saga

Twilight, my fav. movie...Robert, Kristen & Taylor acted out real good...I just loved it...I've read the whole Twilight saga (Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse & Breaking Dawn), It made to the top of my fac. book list...:p...Waiting for New Moon's movie release this November...So here's the video for Paramore's Song "Decode", It's about Twilight itself...*Enjoy*...

The Person I Love The Most

The person I love the most...hmm...for obvious, the answer is "My Sis"...love her to death...well, she doesn't lives with me, it's been a while since she shifted to Fort Collins, Colorado, USA and joined CSU for her further studies...she's doing Aerospace Engg. there...she left on 12th Jan, 2006...Been like forever but she visited us in India in 2007 and than left after a month as her vacations were ending up...so this is her final year so she won't be coming this yr, I guess...but it's ok...

I've passed all these years without her in great despair...seriously, when she left I was like totally broken apart into pieces...she was like my best friend...the only person who was there for me other than my parents (for obvious)...but than I won''t have learned all these stuff being with her...I write because I'm lonely...Have no one to call my own, around...Trust no one...And because I cry my heart out very easily...LoL...Most of the time when I ask someone that if they love their sis and all...most of em' answer as

"ya, I love her, but she gets on my nerves, interferes in my stuff, etcetera but excluding all this, she's just fine"

Sounds stupid enough to me...cause that's what sisters are for...they have got to know your stuff and for obvious you should tell them on your own and all of those quarrels have to take place, somehow...the crying, the hating, the forgiving and than having the same cycle go around again and again...sometimes we used to engage ourselves in meaningless quarrels but it's worth it...but after living without her for this long, I know her importance in my life...she's my everything...!!!

LoVe Ya Sis...Mauhhhz..

Life Sucks...

Emptiness, overflowing upon me

Loneliness, giving in it's heed

Lost in the memories of long lost love

Broken heart is hard to hold up

All of those promises you made

Broken again and again

Forgiven & Forgotten

Love & Hurt

Lonely & Lost

Blood & Bruises

All Over Again

Hope he knew

What life is

When no one's there, for you

They say,

Life sucks and then you die

But when is it going to happen to me

It'd sucked a lot already...

Lost In The Asylum Of Sane

Begging, Crying, Grieving

Betrayal, Hurt, Lies

All I've concluded so far

Another name to love

Pain, To be hurt, In grief...

To slit my wrists, in the dark

To cry to my loneliness

To cry to the one they named as God

Or maybe just no one

But me

Hope he knew

What life is

When no one's there, for you

They say,

Life sucks and then you die

But when is it going to happen to me

It'd sucked a lot already...

Got doomed by destiny

Something I never asked for

Something that was not meant for me

But now it's done to me...

Dead or Alive

Feels the same

So far away, from the end

It's better to die

Then to be left out in pain

Every single moment

The mistakes, I made

Reminds me of what a fool

I've been all through

All of the guilt

Stabbing against my heart so hard...

Hope he knew

What life is

When no one's there, for you

They say,

Life sucks and then you die

But when is it going to happen to me

It'd sucked a lot already...

My Reason...

Well...to start with...I never really thought of creating a blog...until once but than I let go of the idea as I thought it won't be possible for me to keep it regular and no one would even like reading about me and about my ideas...I even made a blog, last yr. I guess and than deleted it aftr an yr...LoL...but it won't take anything if I try just some hours a day or just minutes...so here it goes again...

I'm Zoya...student of A.E.C.S, Kakrapar...it's 65kms frm Surat...been writing for years but than one day I pick on a fight with mom about my grades (stuff had been bad so obvious it won't be long for it to take effect upon my studies) and than I tore off everything and thought that I won't ever write again but than again it's the only means to talk my self out...writing whatever comes to my mind here I'm again...being me for good Lord's sake..."BEING SOMETHING"