Emotionless

Do you know what it feels like...

When there is no one you can turn to

Your world's breaking down

And you just can't do anything

To make it go the right way

Well, that's what I'm feeling right now

My mom hates me...I hate her too

She made me hate her...can't help the fact

How she acts so much weird sometimes

And just act so much insane

At these moments like this one

I close my door

Turn on the radio

Cry my insides out

Ask myself why

How did I get here ?

She ain't even my mother

No one's mine

I ain't got any friends

I ain't got anyone

Just me going on continuously

My world keeps on breaking down

I want to give up but I just can't

There's no end to it

I just have to take it all in...face the pain...

And go on and on

I don't know how much longer I can hold on

I just hope it won't be long for my end to come

I want to escape...end this pain...end my life

End this loneliness...

I want the good lord to feel pleased today…

And Satan feel sorry...

I won't mind rotting in Hell for eternity

All I want is an escape

Escape from this World...This living hell...

And here comes the worst part

I don't even know why my dad changed so much

He used to be my hero

And all that's left of him to be is being a villain

A really bad one...

My sis whom I love the most is far off in some other World

Which knows no cry of pain...living without emotions...

No one gives a damn to care about the another

I'm not even sure if she remembers me the way I remember her

All that I know is that she is far off and she won't be here to see my end...

It seems good in a way...If she still loves me than it won't be a good sight

For her to watch at least...

Those who say, they belong to me...

Well, they are far away in some distant corner of the World

Neither can I reach them nor can they reach me...

Talking and wishing is all that we can do

No one would be there to save me from my suffocating, painful, death

I gonna bleed myself to death

Gonna slit my wrists deeper...see the blood flow

And enjoy the pleasure the sight of it gives

I gonna learn to live in pain

Show them I don't care

How much worse can it get...?

And so here I'm waiting for their final decision

Writing another piece of crap

Shoving this on their face

I don't care is all that I've got to say

Go on do what you want...make my insides die and live emotionless...

The Sad Love Song

Here I am

Wondering' were you might be

Thinking about you

Wishing' that you'll be doing' fine

I don't know what drifted us apart

The adjustments I used to make

or the fights you used to start

I never thought that you gonna leave me,

this way

And I want you to know this

I loved You

I love you

And I'll love you all along...

Oh my love, where are you

Don't you miss me

Don't you wish to get back in the past

And get all those things done the right way...

How can you forget me

Don't you regret leaving me

Why'd you moved out

Left me in solitude...

I don't know what drifted us apart

The adjustments I used to make

or the fights you used to start

I never thought that you gonna leave me,

this way

And I want you to know this

I loved You

I love you

And I'll love you all along...

Every night I get myself to sleep by thinking about you

imagining' that you are still here with me

Although you're not...

This bed made by my side have been voided for years

And every morning I wake up

Feeling' as if it was a bad dream

But soon I get back into the reality

I don't know what drifted us apart

The adjustments I used to make

or the fights you used to start

I never thought that you gonna leave me,

this way

And I want you to know this

I loved You

I love you

And I'll love you all along...

(Speaking')

I'll love you forever

Please remember my words

Remember the good times we had

And again we can keep going' onwards

And continue the fairytale which we left in between

Where it states the 3 sweet words "Happily Ever After"

And I want you to remember this

I loved You

I love you

And I'll love you all along...

Heartsick

And so now it's coming to an end
Finally stopping to beat
And now, I won't be left with any heartstrings
And so I'm done with my life
And I can be free forever,
to soar above the sky,
Dive through the seven seas,
Rest in peace at Heavens,
Forget about the Love of my Life
Who broke my heart once
And made me Heartsick...