Death Sonata

I try so hard to avoid

These sour thoughts of mine

The bitterness that’s in me

The want of vengeance that speaks

The cries of my tainted soul

Never heard or believed

Lay in the corner of this abyss

I bleed myself to demise

Emotionless

Do you know what it feels like...

When there is no one you can turn to

Your world's breaking down

And you just can't do anything

To make it go the right way

Well, that's what I'm feeling right now

My mom hates me...I hate her too

She made me hate her...can't help the fact

How she acts so much weird sometimes

And just act so much insane

At these moments like this one

I close my door

Turn on the radio

Cry my insides out

Ask myself why

How did I get here ?

She ain't even my mother

No one's mine

I ain't got any friends

I ain't got anyone

Just me going on continuously

My world keeps on breaking down

I want to give up but I just can't

There's no end to it

I just have to take it all in...face the pain...

And go on and on

I don't know how much longer I can hold on

I just hope it won't be long for my end to come

I want to escape...end this pain...end my life

End this loneliness...

I want the good lord to feel pleased today…

And Satan feel sorry...

I won't mind rotting in Hell for eternity

All I want is an escape

Escape from this World...This living hell...

And here comes the worst part

I don't even know why my dad changed so much

He used to be my hero

And all that's left of him to be is being a villain

A really bad one...

My sis whom I love the most is far off in some other World

Which knows no cry of pain...living without emotions...

No one gives a damn to care about the another

I'm not even sure if she remembers me the way I remember her

All that I know is that she is far off and she won't be here to see my end...

It seems good in a way...If she still loves me than it won't be a good sight

For her to watch at least...

Those who say, they belong to me...

Well, they are far away in some distant corner of the World

Neither can I reach them nor can they reach me...

Talking and wishing is all that we can do

No one would be there to save me from my suffocating, painful, death

I gonna bleed myself to death

Gonna slit my wrists deeper...see the blood flow

And enjoy the pleasure the sight of it gives

I gonna learn to live in pain

Show them I don't care

How much worse can it get...?

And so here I'm waiting for their final decision

Writing another piece of crap

Shoving this on their face

I don't care is all that I've got to say

Go on do what you want...make my insides die and live emotionless...

Life Sucks...

Emptiness, overflowing upon me

Loneliness, giving in it's heed

Lost in the memories of long lost love

Broken heart is hard to hold up

All of those promises you made

Broken again and again

Forgiven & Forgotten

Love & Hurt

Lonely & Lost

Blood & Bruises

All Over Again

Hope he knew

What life is

When no one's there, for you

They say,

Life sucks and then you die

But when is it going to happen to me

It'd sucked a lot already...

Lost In The Asylum Of Sane

Begging, Crying, Grieving

Betrayal, Hurt, Lies

All I've concluded so far

Another name to love

Pain, To be hurt, In grief...

To slit my wrists, in the dark

To cry to my loneliness

To cry to the one they named as God

Or maybe just no one

But me

Hope he knew

What life is

When no one's there, for you

They say,

Life sucks and then you die

But when is it going to happen to me

It'd sucked a lot already...

Got doomed by destiny

Something I never asked for

Something that was not meant for me

But now it's done to me...

Dead or Alive

Feels the same

So far away, from the end

It's better to die

Then to be left out in pain

Every single moment

The mistakes, I made

Reminds me of what a fool

I've been all through

All of the guilt

Stabbing against my heart so hard...

Hope he knew

What life is

When no one's there, for you

They say,

Life sucks and then you die

But when is it going to happen to me

It'd sucked a lot already...