Where's the love gone...

Why does it have be so hard

Just for the two of us

Have to go through so much

Can't take it, let go of it

You and me, met by chance

Fell in love

And had a new start

You trusted me and I trusted you

Don't know where's the love gone now

Everything was going on fine

Since the nine that night

I received your mail

It said, I was insane

We weren't meant to be

You wasted the last four years on me

In vain, left me in pain

You and me, met by chance

Fell in love

And had a new start

You trusted me and I trusted you

Don't know where's the love gone now

But I never forced you to love me

You could have told me that back then

You could have left 4yrs back

It would have been better than this

Atleast I wouldn't have this hole inside

You and me, met by chance

Fell in love

And had a new start

You trusted me and I trusted you

Don't know where's the love gone now

And now I met this guy

He helped me get over you

I guess, I don't care anymore

Infact, I fucking hate you

You're so done with putting me thorugh hell

Your thoughts don't depress me anymore

I don't want you anymore

Life moves on, no matter what

I forgot with time,

I forgot if there was the thing called love in between

Us

Heartsick

And so now it's coming to an end
Finally stopping to beat
And now, I won't be left with any heartstrings
And so I'm done with my life
And I can be free forever,
to soar above the sky,
Dive through the seven seas,
Rest in peace at Heavens,
Forget about the Love of my Life
Who broke my heart once
And made me Heartsick...

Best Freind

Well, em' feeling happy...Finally, I've got myself a best friend...:)...Have been waiting for so long...His name's Harry...It's like I talk to him 24/7...not actually...but it seems so...he's just so awesome...my feelings can't be expressed into mere words...need a lot of em'...I love him so much...we like started talking on 20th Aug., Midnight and since then we've got so close...he knows me and I know him...:)...I'm feeling lucky...not everyone gets someone like him...and if they do, than they don't put em' in their jewel box...those who took him for granted, boo on ya...dumb people...but after all, I get him whole for myself and I ain't gonna share him with anyone else...gonna be selfish...:P...get jealous all ya people...he's the best...And he's all mine...:)

Untitled

well, I'm blank right now...what to write...school was boring...1st period...ahhh...as boring as always...2ND period, third language, ma'am told me I was doing good...was I...?...I was as bad at it as I can be...3rd, calculus...4Th, SS...boring...recess...2nd half...calculus again, than SS...English...and than a lecture on Swine Flu...seriously I don't need that shit...better that happens to me and I die...my wish be granted...please...rumors are spread in class about me and that guy who likes to talk to me, in class...80s mentality have to act out someway by those bitches...they're so sick...damn, I hate em' so much...!!!

Unnoticed

She sees her blood flow

Down her hands, to the floor

The stainless blade lying beside her

The loneliness evolving inside her

Her visions getting a blur

Her memories fading away

Her heart stopping

Her screeching slowing down

She lived, she died

She smiled, she cried

She lived in pain, in vain

She’s forgotten

And she goes unnoticed

Her tears drying

But she’s still drowning in em’

So dark, so deep, this darkness overwhelming her

Her struggles are coming to an end

Nobody cares

About the flares she faces

She’s tired, exhausted

Leave her please, in peace

She can’t hold unto anymore

Trusted, Betrayed

Fought, Lost

Feared, Deceived

Tried, gave up

Broken

Nothings left to her

She lived, she died

She smiled, she cried

She lived in pain, in vain

She’s forgotten

And she goes unnoticed

I go unnoticed

Deathwish

Finally it came to me...2 new poetic disasters...!!!...well, again it's about my life...what else can I write about...emo crybaby as they say, is all I'm.......................

Deathwish

Fall to pieces

I don’t fit in anywhere

They all hate me everywhere

Nobody wanna be my friend

I trusted everyone, I found on my way

They used me, abused me and left me for waste

I cried and drowned myself in my tears

I’m all covered with my fears

I believed in god

I believed in happiness

I believed in true love

I believed in friendship

I believed in myself

But everything was fake

You were a fake…!!!

I thought of heavens

And dreamt happily-ever-afters

I now know, I was living a lie

All that is real is hell

Which I’m living in so well

My poetic disasters

All too sad

Describing sorrow

Wanting sympathy

Dying for attention

An insult to the poets

An example of bad creativity

Living superficiality

They may say I’m emo

They may say I’m insane

But never did they tried to understand

Or To know who I’m

What’s wrong with me?

I can’t stand myself

This ugly covering upon me

Just take it all away

I fucking hate myself

I’ve got to get rid of myself

Deathwish (x3)

- Amen

Fun At School

Today, the day at school was really fun...I didn't concentrated on the 1st half's four periods much as I had to write that essay(Innovative Measures To Reduce Corruption) in *good writing* and submit to my prof...It was like 13 long pgs...damn long...than 2nd half's 6th period is when the real fun started...I roamed with my pals in search for our prof. than after submitting him the essay, I went for the games period...Some of the girls decided to play with guys (which was really strange to see, I mean, where's the 80s mentality gone now) actually there were only 5-6 girls playing with 19-20guys...the team was divided...we played soccer...it was awesome...though I got the ball rarely...but still it was fun...I had a really awesome experience and some guys made me laugh so much...my team was kind of weak as we had less players an most of them were girls(who were playing soccer for the 1st time) but still...the score was 1/3 in the end...we scored 1...LoL...the guys of my class have started talking to me and not like the way they talk to the other girls...so it's good...they tell me about things happening and all of those stuff and there crappy jokes...LoL...I can't understand how the girls can talk about which nail paint they should put on tomorrow or which lip gloss suits em' best...weird stuff...at least I'm not like that...I better go with guys...they're fun to talk to and their talks doesn't includes clothes and make-up as far as they aren't going for a *date*...LoL...then the last period came...7th and 8th...both of em' were computer science and my mind wasn't present in the class during the 7th period as I was really exhausted and was sleeping while my partner practiced the practicals...than concentrated while my ma'am was teaching...atleast I tried...the mid-terms are starting from 31st Aug...no big deal...have to do my best at least...:)...though the positive attitude isn't gonna stay for long...just till I don't tell about this to my "so-called parents"...gonna take some more time though...*winks*...

Misjudged Relations

It's 11.33pm...I don't know what to write about...I'm feeling kind of low...no specific reason though...I'm just feeling like crying...as if my eyes are gonna burst out crying...day at school was fine...1st period as usual goes on boring...even 2Nd was boring...3rd was okay types, I won't blame my prof. for his lectures...my class students are worth it...4Th one was like....it came and went away...than 5Th, English was really funny and awkward...we had this role play thing going on and my Eng. prof. appointed me as the Britisher's governor general and i had to answer the Indian farmers in the assembly i appointed and tell solutions for their problems...it was funny...I didn't knew what to answer most of the time...I laughed so much...than 6Th one was kind of free so I roamed around the school a bit actually I was searching for the Eng. department head, had to submit him an essay...than i came back and one of my classmate started teasing me and I was just letting it go...as they were more of a compliments but than too...later in the next period he started hitting on me...LoL...life can get so crazy...but than he'll always be my friend...that's what he was meant to be...

Low Level Flight - Turnaround

There's something about this video...I don't know what but it's like I've to listen to it everyday and it makes me feel as if I'm crying my heart out...Lyrics are as follows :

Growing up with you was torture
watching all the things you did
now it seems our life is over
even though were still just kids

You saw the look on my face
You saw the way I have changed
Now Im telling you straight

Turnaround, don't follow the others
Turnaround you know were still brothers
Turnaround and walk away from this life of pain

So many times I've seen what you do
And all alone it's hard to cope
So many time I barely knew you
But now I know that there's still hope

You saw the look on my face
You saw the way I have changed
Now Im telling you straight

Turnaround, don't follow the others
Turnaround you know were still brothers
Turnaround and walk away from this life of pain

Walk away, Turnaround and Run
Dont listen to anyone
Walk away, Turnaround

Turnaround, don't follow the others
Turnaround you know were still brothers
Turnaround and walk away from this life of pain

I know that this is only the begining
Don't you remember you and I are winning
I know that this is only the begining
Don't you remember you and I are winning

Worst Week (Was to be posted on 15th Aug.)

So I guess the whole week was meant to be the worst week of the year…I’m having holidays for 3days so it was decided that I could be online as much as I want…No blocking…But than again, how can I trust my “so-called parents”…I came home from school on the 13th…tried starting my net. But the DSL’s light on my modem was not switching on, I thought my dad would have forgotten to un-block and I started to study than in the evening when he came home from work, I came to know that he hadn’t blocked it last night and something’s wrong with my modem…than he told me that tomorrow someone will come to get this thing work properly so I waited for the next day to come eagerly…mum said that the guy will come at 1pm so I was still waiting but than the clock struck 1.30pm and I called dad, he was like “I just called those people but they are still in Surat, I don’t think they will come today”…than I was like, “what am I supposed to do about this…I have to write an essay”…he was like “What’s the topic…?...I’ll get the data…I said “I’ve to write it on my own but I need some reading to do so…than he started to give his clarifications, and I hung up the phone while he was speaking or yelling…wateva…as I was already in tears, I went to my room…locked the door…fell on my bed and started crying…I don’t know for how long I cried but than I slept and woke up many times between 4pm to 11.30pm but by 12am I was wide awake…than I started studying as I had some pending work to be completed and than I opened up the door as I had "fast" because of Janmastmi and went outside to see if the moon’s visible and than open up my fast…I didn’t had anything for the whole day, not even a single drop of water…that is, I didn’t had anything for 24hrs even though we’re allowed to eat fruits and dry fruits and some other stuff…but I didn’t had anything…the moon was out something around 2am…so I had my dinner and completed my writing work and right now it’s 3.20am and I’m told that I’ve to go to my aunt’s place and do the net. work there so I’m writing this blog thing on Microsoft word and tomorrow I’ll post it in the blog, only if I get to, so this is for sure that I’m doomed for life…and the BSNL people are on holidays for the upcoming 3days…Government Fuckers…But this doesn’t means I trust my “so-called parents” maybe they have this damn thing blocked…but apart from this stuff…I need to write an essay on the subject I was craving for from a very long time…*Innovative Measures To Reduce Corruption*…anyways *Happy 63rd Independence Day*…Fuck…I still hate living…!...And I always will…I wish that the swine flu thing happens to me…and I die in less than 5days…before anyone even notice that I was suffering from it…Damn, someone or something kill me…please…?