Thursday, October 28, 2010
Ruined reminiscences.
In the darkness he lies,
Diceived by the ecclesiastical horror.
In the world , which belong to the castaways,
They came to kill on behalf of their God.
What good is he , can't he see,
The melancholy that these leave.
The cries of the innocent souls,
Never heard or believed.
These beasts who vanquished them,
In the dungeons, imprisoned.
Obscured in the abyss,
Of the insane.
All that remains,
Are the ruined reminiscences.
Of the diseased,
Those who conceived.
For mercy they asked,
With gramercy , in the name of god.
Living mandatory suicide,
Screamed in pain,
Bullets fell like rain.
What good is that god ?
And these charlatans who preached,
To kill and to lie,
Morally mislead.
When would he learn ?
The struggle goes on forever,
Until you reach your grave,
Your obscene demise , be fouled fate.
Shadow..
Her beautiful legacy..
Oh ! How you slashed her dreams ,
Your own illegal means , to fulfill your desires ,
And being her guest , finishing the kill .
She takes in the bitter pill of hate ,
There lies her fate , so pale ,
To obliterate those in your way ,
And that evil smile makes her day ,
But as you say , nothing lasts forever ,
This memory would lie in the past ,
Never touched but glamoured .
In thy own way , you lie and deceived ,
And she agrees , cause you made her believe ,
And confided everything in your words , unsaid ,
Disdained her , abandoned the benevolence , so violent ,
Once she lived , so free until relinquished ,
Into something so ungenerous to say .
May he grant mercy on his once forsook child ,
As the touch of her fingers against his skin so mild ,
Why did it all have to turn out so wild .
Gilded with memories of bliss ,
All that she misses , is the love that left traces ,
And those faces , who promised to stay ,
Made her lose her way at the bay .
Heart made of clay , played with and dropped ,
Loooked down and found pieces ,
Pieces which made her say jeez .
And please , don't make her contemplate suicide ,
Cause thats all which lies ,
Underneath , beneath the shattered wings .
She clinged him in her arms ,
But he disarmed her and left her .
She grieved for his touch ,
But as if he cared much , enough .
So she lured herself to conceive ,
And gave in her grievances ,
And attained peace .
Finally demised to her grave ,
Where lays a black rose to make others sense the pain .
And so she didn't left in vain ,
She still lives among us ,
Only visible to those who suffer ,
She buffers them from agony ,
Here lies her beautiful legacy .
You had me from [hello]
Memories..
Deep down inside, you made a hole, poured some hope.
Brought me to this new day, buried all my grieving, of yesterdays.
Once broken heart is hard to hold up, but when its shattered again,
All that it brings about is pain with the unwanted tattering rain.
Reminiscing the beautiful agony I suffered,
Or rather the unspoilt memories which made it tougher...
Haunting me all this time, alive in my nightmares that fright,
Never leaving or letting me forget, you sure are my biggest regret.
Somewhere deep inside it still hurts, hurts to feel you beside me,
And when I close my eyes, it is your face, I see...
Forever you said, forgetting what this word really meant,
And by giving you my heart, should’ve known you were to make a dent..
I learned that you need to be careful with who you trust,
Or else, your heart will be crusted, all left to burst...
I don’t want to see you anymore, I’m just not that strong,
I loved it when you were here, but now I feel better when you’re gone…
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Guilt-kick brought me to this :/ .
On this shapeless surface,
I lie like a carcass.
Deserted by all those who live,
Forsook by my heavenly angel, as it seems.
In love with you, my angel you be,
Went astray for a while, undone I be.
But in this time of agony, don't desolate my soul,
Come to me again, and we'll paint our lives rainbow.
Deja Vu' as it feels, so solitary I be,
Long for your touch, for your arms around me.
Screams in my head, never-resting echoes,
Put them to peace, be my savior.
Don't walk away,
Don't just let me be.
I need you, want you, with me.
An oath to love you, forever long,
You're my world, my everything, my love.
I love you with all my heart,
And I promise,
to never let us fall apart..
<3
P.S. Written for my long lost love..(:.
Uninvited.
Ecclesiastical horror rises,
In the depth of the modern crisis,
Long for peace, they be mean,
Does life in these voided streets still exists?
Woke up frightened, in the middle of the night,
By their screams, their cries,
Echoes enlightened, his blowing nightmares,
Could he feel the invincible life which pleas?
An illusion of light,
He covered himself tight,
The sweat dripping down his face,
The uninvited figure, shows a trace.
He's afraid of its presence,
As its encircling around him,
He's lost in a dark black cloud,
The brackish tears which surrounds him.
He's lost, for eternity,
Still he's felt below reality,
Among the dead, he shall lie,
And haunt those four walls..
As the darkness falls again.
Friday, May 21, 2010
Sometimes questions are more important than answers..
Haven't you ever felt , alone ?
Haven't you ever felt , betrayed ?
Haven't you ever been a teen ?
Didn't you ever looked for an escape ?
Didn't you made mistakes ? ( Oh , I know I was a mistake )
Escape , from this desolated world ,
And from the atrocities which live here
Those who don't give here , nothing but hate ,
Took as much as they can , from me , you see
And they left this hollow hole in my heart and it bleeds
I buried the scars deep , underneath my full sweat
And I bet you couldn't see me crying as I hide under this virtual lair
And I fake a smile so perfect , you'd barely notice the sorrow
Cause outside these four walls , I don't know what I'm , nothing but some trash
A child unwanted , an obnoxious student , a fucked up so-called friend ,
and a lover undone , so dramatic or a sissy baby sister , as she called me
And 'cause you couldn't see whats lying beneath this corpse , indeed
A soul untouched , I'm hungry for love
You hurt me so bad , and I can see it doesn't even matter
'cause nothing's gonna change , you'll be staying the same
Saying sorry wouldn't make a difference
You can't go back around in the past and erase the scars , the bruises , they live
And anyway who am I fooling around with ? What would you be sorry for ?
For telling me that you hate me or for me not being an "extraordinary child"
Don't feel sorry for me , you know that I'm a fucked up case
Desolated I stay and I know you're not the one to be blamed
Its all me , always been , all covered up in these revolutionary philosophies
Would it make a difference if I just quit ?
Quit from this job of being your perfect kid
'cause you don't treat me like a kiddo anymore
As if I'm some matured shit And if you can't bear to see me like this
So I guess , you shall just kick , kick me out of "your" place
I wouldn't mind being a stray 'cause you see I've gone too far astray
And feeding me with those lies , doesn't help at all
'cause in reality , you're just the same as I'm
Except you get to make your own choices and you have me as a slave
And I'm sorry to be naive , but it'd be hard to bury myself with all these words
They crush my insides to pieces and I've got to let them out , so now I shut
I've always been a victim , noticed the glass half empty
And I slit , so what ? Self abuse ain't a big thing
Anyway , its so tempting , redeeming myself from these sins
And not to tell you , people call it child abuse
What you do to me , as you shut me , sweet .
And with this I end here , another poetical tragedy
In the end of these absurd lines , I do the crime of killing me.
Saturday, May 1, 2010
My favorite mistake , But I moved on.
No you won't mind, this time